Friendship and a Motorcycle

There comes a time in a persons life that they start reflecting on their past and decisions that they have made that led them to where they are today. I have to admit that if there were things in my past that I could’ve done differently then I would gladly go back and redo them. Unfortunately we don’t get a second chance, or a do over. Once something is done then it can’t be undone. But I am a firm believer of trying not to make the same mistake twice and learning from mistakes. I feel that whatever has happened in my life has made me the person that I am today, no matter how it may look to others and how they may judge me. They however are not in my skin and I have learned not to let them get under my skin as well. There is no person in the world that should point the finger at another and judge the decisions that anyone else has ever made, unless they have been in their shoes, no one can say.

I have been fortunate to have a great family, siblings that would give their shirt off their back if you are in need or just for the asking. I had parents that would do anything in their power to give me what I needed, sometimes that doesn’t always mean money or wealth. I know to some people blessings mean money, to me blessings mean special moments, kisses, hugs, smiles and laughter, children being born and watching them grow up to be great adults. So in my world of blessings, my cup runneth over.

I have also been fortunate to have had a friend that I could depend on for almost 30 years now. We might have started on shaky ground and definitely have had our differences; but at the end of the day, this person has proven to be almost more than family, definitely more than friendship and almost angelic in the way that he was presented to me at a time when I needed someone the most, and how he continues to be my angel of mercy at certain points in my life.

There have been times when I have been alone, felt lonely, hurt and in pain. My best friend has always been there no matter what. Whatever is going on in my life, it only takes a phone call to him, if I need something and it’s the other way around as well. We used to finish each others sentences and we used to even sometimes know what we were thinking at the same time. We laughed, we cried many times, we shared joy and spiritual moments that we could not ever explain or even try to describe to anyone nor would we have tried. That was only for us.

We have watched each other find other friends, lovers and have even watched each other marry other people, nevertheless the friendship has never died no matter what anyone else has to say about it. My best friend has been the brunt of my jokes, has been the cause of many of my tears and I have hurt him many times as well. There isn’t anything that we have not gone through in this world. I have been ill and he has been there, unselfishly to take care of me when no one else would. I have been there for him when he was throwing up and losing hair from many cancer treatments that he had to endure, and is still enduring.

Forgiveness is a wonderful thing because it allows people to start over again no matter what happens. I guess that is what unconditional love is all about. No matter what a person does or what you do to another, if you can still love them no matter what, then nothing can come between you, even if the actions are not pleasant. We have forgiven each other for many things in our past and its only a memory now.

I can honestly say that if my friend should leave this world today, it would not only leave a void in my life, but it would leave the world a little colder. I dedicate this hub to him and he knows who he is.

My favorite memory of my friend is riding a motorcycle in the dead of night through the desert with him. That was awesome, truly a blessing!

Feelings
Just as a wave is lifted by the shore,
Then breaks across the slowly rising sand,
So as I watch you weep my feelings pour
Across the wash of what I understand.
I wish I could just take you in my arms
And all your pain could melt into my chest,
And all the violence of passing storms
Could pass through me and finally come to rest.
No words can set things right or presence lend
A miracle to light your darkened way,
But there is solace in a loving friend
And comfort in what I don't have to say.
Whatever circumstance you cannot bear,
Just turn to me, and you will find me there

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